Francesca Rhydderch is certain that she's chronically ill, but her doctors disagree. Twelve months later she can't even walk down the street, and her latest consultant is still suggesting that her neurological problems will just go away on their own. Then she comes across a specialist who changes the course of her illness. She may well be in danger of fighting a losing battle - with time, memory, herself - but she learns there are ways to live in the present by making peace with the past.Some names have been changed to protect privacy.

In 1996 Elsa lies in hospital reflecting on a past full of contrasts of place, language and circumstances, of safety and danger, and the awakening and dying of love.Back in 1940, far from their west Wales home, Elsa and her first husband, Captain Tommy Jones, had lived the privileged colonial life of Allied civilian ex-patriots in Hong Kong, their experiences both interdependent and contrasting with those of the Chinese who serve them. While news of the war worsens Elsa loses her first child and fault-lines open in the marriage as she becomes aware of Tommy's increasing interest in another, more sophisticated woman. Then the Japanese soldiers arrive and the Europeans are herded into an internment camp, where the tensions between Elsa and Tommy increase. Later, the difficulties of adjustment to postwar life are subtly delineated, as Elsa, Tommy and their young daughter, Mari return from the Far East to Wales and a changing community.In this memorable first novel, inspired by the experiences of her great-aunt, Francesca Rhydderch explores with sensitivity and acuity the effects of wartime on an impulsive marriage and the evolving strengths and weaknesses of individuals in the face of crisis.

Francesca Rhydderch is certain that she's chronically ill, but her doctors disagree. Twelve months later she can't even walk down the street, and her latest consultant is still suggesting that her neurological problems will just go away on their own. Then she comes across a specialist who changes the course of her illness. She may well be in danger of fighting a losing battle - with time, memory, herself - but she learns there are ways to live in the present by making peace with the past.Some names have been changed to protect privacy.

In 1996 Elsa lies in hospital reflecting on a past full of contrasts of place, language and circumstances, of safety and danger, and the awakening and dying of love.Back in 1940, far from their west Wales home, Elsa and her first husband, Captain Tommy Jones, had lived the privileged colonial life of Allied civilian ex-patriots in Hong Kong, their experiences both interdependent and contrasting with those of the Chinese who serve them. While news of the war worsens Elsa loses her first child and fault-lines open in the marriage as she becomes aware of Tommy's increasing interest in another, more sophisticated woman. Then the Japanese soldiers arrive and the Europeans are herded into an internment camp, where the tensions between Elsa and Tommy increase. Later, the difficulties of adjustment to postwar life are subtly delineated, as Elsa, Tommy and their young daughter, Mari return from the Far East to Wales and a changing community.In this memorable first novel, inspired by the experiences of her great-aunt, Francesca Rhydderch explores with sensitivity and acuity the effects of wartime on an impulsive marriage and the evolving strengths and weaknesses of individuals in the face of crisis.