John Wijngaards, DD, LSS, is an internationally renowned theologian and Scripture scholar and is founder of the Wijngaards Institute for Catholic Research, headquartered in London. He is one of the leading voices in the worldwide movement to include women in the Catholic priesthood. A former Mill Hill Missionary and vicar general of his congregation, he resigned from the active priestly ministry in 1998, mainly because of a conflict of conscience over the Churchs refusal to ordain women. His Institute coordinates international studies on crucial issues of reform facing the Church today.

• Prologue; Preface; What?! Me trying to reform the Catholic Church?; Part 1 Learning to think for myself; Into the gaping jaws of war; From the pincers of death; Rescuing my self-respect; Pledging utter dedication; Learning to think independently; What kind of priest?; Training for academic war at university; Part 2 On the Front Line; Subversive tactics at the heart of the Church; Joining the battle at Vatican Council II; Teaching future priests in India; Establishing a Catholic Information Centre; Funding Church projects at the grass roots; Creative endeavors in book & film; Coordinating mission worldwide; The future of Missionary Societies; Bishops appointed by Rome to block Church renewal; Part 3 Fighting the "Anti-Sex Bug" in the Church; The octopus of sexual repression; Screwed up sex guru; Lightning strikes from Rome; The ordination of women; Creating a training institute for religious sisters; Finding God in a loving partner?; Part 4 Helping Catholics become Adult Believers; Teaching on three fronts; Bringing priests down to earth; Treating the faithful as adults; Wielding my pen; Counselling victims of sects and cults; Walking on Water; How to make sense of God; 5 The Clash and Renewed Resolve; Inner turmoil leading to action; Stepping down from my official position; No sympathy from the Vatican; My marriage to Jackie Clackson; Academic research to update the Church; Glossary; Appendix 1 - Ten Commandments for Church Reform; Appendix 2 Timeline; Appendix 3 - My resignation from priestly ministry; Index; Photo & Art credits; About the Author; Publications