I was very much aware of my failings as a Christian. Gods intent for my life was that I would be like Him; that I would be Holy as He is Holy. Is that even possible? I was constantly contending with my fleshly inclination to focus on my own self reliance and self worth. Though I had been a born again Christian for many years, I knew something wasnt quite right. I was trusting in my own ability to overcome the power of the flesh and I was failing miserably. It was only as I began to exercise faith in the power of Christ in me that I began to live as a restored descendant of Jesus instead of a fallen descendant of Adam. It is only as I am learning to submit to the will and intent of my Heavenly Husband that I am finally beginning to experience an intimate relationship with my creator God.