He grew up in a small town in New England in the 1950's, watching lassie, going to church, getting straight A's at school, a scholar destined for success. But he already had a secret, and his public life with family and friends was already a constant round of ventriloquism as he played the joker and pretended to be the same as everyone else. For Paul Monette was gay.BECOMING A MAN is about growing up gay, and about the tyranny and self denial of the closet - one man's struggle, for half his life, to come out. From the white-bread 1950's through the rebellious 1960's to the self-creating 1970's and beyond, it forms a passionately honest and unsparing account of the tortures of living a lie, a naked protrait of one man's fight for freedom in a time of ignorance and bigotry.

Winner of the National Book Award for Becoming a Man, his candid and passionate account of growing up gay in a time of ignorance and bigotry, this third volume of Paul Monette's autobiographical writing brings together an eclectic collection of essays written under the shadow of AIDS.Meditative, philosophical, sometimes blisteringly angry, Paul Monette presents a simultaneously personal and universal vision of the struggle for freedom faced by gay and lesbian people in 1990s American, counteracting reference to his own illness with a unique perspective on literature, politics and religion.Varied yet focused, damning yet tender, Last Watch of the Night shines like a beacon of hope in a fog of intolerance - offering solace to those who think they're alone, raining down shame on those who would have them stay that way.

From the author of the National Book Award winner Becoming a Man comes a fairy tale that captures the strangeness of society’s rules and the liberating nature of love as the Great Horned Owl is brought to life as he sets an intolerant agenda in a mystical forest. In this collection of fables, Paul Monette chronicles the experiences of being lesbian and gay through the scene of a magical forest that is protected by a solitary, sex-changing witch. With the power to expel a shield that protect the animals of the forest from the outside world, the witch is able to keep the occupants of the forest safe. But not through physical protection, rather by changing the minds of the intruders entering the forest. As the witch grows weary from her constant protection, an owl hungry for power takes over the throne of the forest, urging the animals to report all suspicious activity to keep the forest safe, leading to betrayal and skepticism among a previously free and enchanted group of animals. “Like a shaman, Monette—the novelist, poet, essayist, AIDS activist, and National Book Award winner who died of AIDS in 1995—creates a magic space within this animal fable, which resonates with wisdom and grace.” — Publishers Weekly

A poetry collection spanning the career of award-winning writer Paul MonettePaul Monette got his start writing poetry, and it was to this form that he returned following the death of his partner Roger Horwitz from AIDS-related complications. This stunning collection includes Monette''s early work as well as the beautiful and wrenching poems borne out of this immense loss. Written with characteristic wit, these poems deftly traverse humor, rage, love, and sorrow.West of Yesterday, East of Summer captures the range of an important writer.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

An enthralling collection of poetry from National Book Award winner Paul Monette“Come, / what can the body do but go on, when / the best of us are eaten from within?” writes Paul Monette in the titular poem. This mixture of doom and determinedness is played out with humor and warmth in Monette’s poetry. In this quicksilver collection, his words are in perpetual motion, traveling from the Parthenon to Ohio and everywhere in between. Meditating frequently on sex, nostalgia, and love, these poems are serious without ever becoming humorless. They include charming and funny monologues from Isadora Duncan and Noël Coward. Accompanied by original artwork by David Schorr, No Witnesses is an absorbing book of poetry from an acclaimed author.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

National Book Award winner Paul Monette''s acclaimed first book of poetryOriginally published in 1975, The Carpenter at the Asylum was Monette''s first literary success. In this collection of poems, he writes with playfulness and candor of everything from fairy tales to the change of seasons. "All things glitter like fresh milk," he writes in one poem. And indeed, these works pull a sparklingly strange beauty from everyday objects and experiences.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Paul Monette''s fierce and arresting collection of poems on the death of his partner from AIDSFollowing his partner Roger Horwitz''s death from AIDS in 1986, Paul Monette threw himself into these elegies. Writing them, he says, "quite literally kept me alive." Both beautifully written and deeply affecting, every poem is full of anger, sorrow, tenderness, and a palpable sense of grief. With graceful language and emotional acuity, Paul Monette captures the enormity of a loss that ravaged a generation. But even more than they are about tragedy, these poems are about love. Each moving line is full of love for one who is no longer there, but whose presence is still achingly felt at every turn. Love Alone is remarkable for its honesty, its passion, and its depth.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Paul Monette''s uproarious, sexy novel takes us deep into the glamorous world of vintage Los AngelesPerched on top of a hill in the oldest part of Bel Air, Crook House is the grand mansion that gilded Hollywood dreams are made of. It seemed like the perfect place for the exhausted and neurotic Rita to take time away from her life and catch up with her old friend Peter and his lover, Nick. What she didn''t count on was her friends'' emotional baggage, not to mention the suspicious tales of a buried treasure underneath the house.This second novel from Paul Monette puts a tender focus on the ways in which money and time can distort relationships, while also demonstrating how the ties between friends can endure—and even grow stronger—no matter what the distance or history. As Rita, Nick, and Peter get closer to unraveling the mystery buried underneath Crook House, they begin to learn that what they are searching for could be the key to their very survival.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Now that Mrs. Carroll has died, the race for control of her elegant home has begunIt is incredible how the death of a loved one can bring people together. Especially when greedy developers waste no time in attempting to steal the Cape Cod estate of the person in question.Before she could add a stipulation to her will requiring that the house not be bought up and razed for development, Mrs. Carroll tragically passed away. Now, it is up to her lover, Phidias, and her houseboy, David, to take care of the place once again. However, they cannot do it alone. They will need the help of people ranging from David''s ex-boyfriend Rick to a kitschy former screen goddess.Written not long after Paul Monette moved to Los Angeles, his first novel is a madcap caper featuring a cast of characters willing to do anything to fulfill a dying woman''s final wish—even if that means impersonating her while hiding her dead body from the nosy lawyers scouring her estate.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

In the village of Pitts Landing, true evil can linger for centuriesIt all started with the desperate urging of an internal voice, born from a pulse-pounding nightmare: Run. With that, Iris Ammons felt impelled to leave behind her husband, her children, her job, and her idyllic life. Her motive was never clear to her, just a notion that her entire life had become unfamiliar and that she had to get to the West Coast and the mystical village of Pitts Landing.Similarly focused on the town is its devilishly charismatic cult leader Michael Roman. Michael cuts a bloody swath through his followers in order to get to the secret at the heart of the village.As the coincidences pile up and the omens stack on top of one another like the bodies of Michael''s disciples, he and Iris find themselves at the center of a mystery that stretches back for generations and has effects that could be felt for centuries to come.Lightfall is an erotic horror epic from gifted National Book Award winner Paul Monette, a master of combining thrills with intense emotion, no matter what the genre.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

An unlikely pair races to find a murderer in the hazy underbelly of Los AngelesVivien Cokes and her husband, Jasper, are LA royalty, and they have the lifestyle to prove it. Big parties, a huge mansion in Malibu, and complicated affairs are all part of the package. However, during a morning swim, Vivien makes a discovery that changes her life forever. Smelling smoke, she sees her home in flames, and inside, she finds her husband dead in the hot tub with his male lover in an apparent double suicide.To find out the truth behind her husband''s death, Vivien must turn to the unlikeliest of sources: a failed writer and grifter who was the boyfriend of her husband''s late lover. After finding kinship in a sort of shared widowhood, the two set out to bring to justice the people behind their loved ones'' deaths.Paul Monette has a poet''s touch, and his aptitude is on full display in The Long Shot as he immerses readers in a mystery with a cast of characters that is as diverse and memorable as the city in which they live.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

A powerful exploration of the way AIDS reshapes relationships and livesAfterlife is a haunting and unforgettable story of men facing loss and seeking love, movingly capturing the moment in the 1980s when the AIDS epidemic was completely devastating the American gay community. Here, National Book Award winner Paul Monette depicts three men of various economic and social backgrounds, all with one thing in common: They are widowers, in a way, and all of their lovers died of AIDS in an LA hospital within a week of one another.Steven, Sonny, and Dell meet weekly to discuss how to go on with their lives despite the hanging sword of being HIV positive. One tries to find a semblance of normalcy; one rebels openly against the disease, choosing to treat his body as a temple that he can consecrate and desecrate at will; and one throws himself into fierce political activism. No matter what path each one takes, they are all searching for one thing: a way to live and love again.Afterlife finds Paul Monette at his most autobiographical, portraying men in a situation that he himself experienced, and one that he described to critical acclaim in the award-winning Borrowed Time: An AIDS Memoir.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Tom tried everything to get away from the world—but it had a way of getting back to himWhen Tom was diagnosed with AIDS, he thought of it as a death sentence. His life was effectively over. He packed up everything and moved to a beach house in California. There, he could live out what remained of his life in peace. His landlord was kind, understanding—and interested in him romantically. Tom had found the safe haven he sought. That is, until his brother, Brian, reappeared in his life.Brian''s shady business connections back home have him and his family on the run. With him are his homophobic wife, Susan, and his son, Daniel, who has never met his uncle. Thrown into an explosive situation, Tom and his family struggle to become closer. But when Brian''s dirty dealings follow him to California and threaten the lives of the entire family, the bond between the two brothers is put to the test.Paul Monette displays a keen awareness of family dynamics as he explores coming out, life-threatening illness, and the lifelong consequences of brotherly conflicts. Halfway Home is a novel about anger and reconciliation, love and danger.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

“An eloquent testimonial to the power of love and the devastation of loss” from the National Book Award–winning author of Becoming a Man (Publishers Weekly). In 1974, Paul Monette met Roger Horwitz, the man with whom he would share more than a decade of his life. In 1986, Roger died of complications from AIDS. Borrowed Time traces this love story from start to tragic finish. At a time when the medical community was just beginning to understand this mysterious and virulent disease, Monette and others like him were coming to terms with unfathomable loss. This personal account of the early days of the AIDS crisis tells the story of love in the face of death. A finalist for the National Book Critics Circle Award, Borrowed Time was one of the first memoirs to deal candidly with AIDS and is as moving and relevant now as it was more than twenty-five years ago. Written with fierce honesty and heartwarming tenderness, this book is part love story, part testimony, and part requiem. This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

The National Book Award–winning coming-out memoir. "One of the most complex, moral, personal, and political books to have been written about gay life" (LA Weekly).Paul Monette grew up all-American, Catholic, overachieving . . . and closeted. As a child of the 1950s, a time when a kid suspected of being a "homo" would routinely be beaten up, Monette kept his secret throughout his adolescence. He wrestled with his sexuality for the first thirty years of his life, priding himself on his ability to "pass" for straight. The story of his journey to adulthood and to self-acceptance with grace and honesty, this intimate portrait of a young man''s struggle with his own desires is witty, humorous, and deeply felt.Before his death of complications from AIDS in 1995, Monette was an outspoken activist crusading for gay rights. Becoming a Man shows his courageous path to stand up for his own right to love and be loved.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Tender and passionate autobiographical essays by the National Book Award–winning author of Becoming a Man."Does it go too fast?" Monette asks about life at the beginning of one piece. The answer is a resounding "yes" for the individuals who populate this stunning work of nonfiction. These ten autobiographical essays memorialize those whose lives have been claimed by AIDS. Following Becoming a Man and Borrowed Time, Last Watch of the Night is Monette''s third and final self-portrait. In this collection, he confronts death—those of lovers and friends, and even his own eventual demise—with both bravery and compassion.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Paul Monette''s uproarious, sexy novel takes us deep into the glamorous world of vintage Los AngelesPerched on top of a hill in the oldest part of Bel Air, Crook House is the grand mansion that gilded Hollywood dreams are made of. It seemed like the perfect place for the exhausted and neurotic Rita to take time away from her life and catch up with her old friend Peter and his lover, Nick. What she didn''t count on was her friends'' emotional baggage, not to mention the suspicious tales of a buried treasure underneath the house.This second novel from Paul Monette puts a tender focus on the ways in which money and time can distort relationships, while also demonstrating how the ties between friends can endure—and even grow stronger—no matter what the distance or history. As Rita, Nick, and Peter get closer to unraveling the mystery buried underneath Crook House, they begin to learn that what they are searching for could be the key to their very survival.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

From an acclaimed memoirist and National Book Award winner: Three groundbreaking works of nonfiction put a human face on the AIDS epidemic.Paul Monette''s searing memoirs of growing up, coming out, and losing his beloved partner to AIDS are now available in a single volume. Becoming a Man: This National Book Award–winning memoir follows Monette''s childhood. Growing up all-American, Catholic, overachieving . . . and closeted, Monette wrestled with his sexuality for the first thirty years of his life, priding himself on his ability to "pass" for straight. This intimate portrait of a young man''s struggle with his own desires and journey to adulthood and self-acceptance through grace and honesty is witty, humorous, and deeply felt. Borrowed Time: Chronicling Monette''s relationship with Roger Horwitz, this tragic true story follows Horwitz''s fight against and eventual death from AIDS. A "tender and lyrical" memoir (TheNew York Times Book Review), it remains one of the most raw and human tales of the AIDS era—a "searing, shattering, ultimately hope-inspiring account of a great love story" (San Francisco Examiner). The Last Watch of the Night: Compiling work from the last two years of his life, this collection of essays documents Monette''s reflections as he slowly succumbed to AIDS. Ringing with humor, rage, and passion, his words provide a breathtaking view from inside the AIDS scourge. Brutal, funny, and startlingly honest, this comprehensive volume brings together some of the most important stories of the AIDS era.

Two novels and two collections of poetry, all powerful reflections on the AIDS experience, from the National Book Award–winning author of Becoming a Man. Afterlife: Three men bond after their lovers die of AIDS, all within a week of one another in the same Los Angeles hospital. Each of the men react differently to the situation he''s in, but no matter the path each takes, they are all searching for a way to live and love again. Halfway Home: After being diagnosed with AIDS, Tom moves to a California beach house to live out the rest of his life in peace. But the unexpected reappearance of his troubled brother quickly changes everything in this novel about anger, reconciliation, love, and danger. Love Alone: Following his partner Roger Horwitz''s death from AIDS in 1986, Paul Monette threw himself into these elegies. Writing them, he says, "quite literally kept me alive." Both beautifully written and deeply affecting, every poem is full of resentment, sorrow, tenderness, and a palpable sense of grief—but also love. West of Yesterday, East of Summer: This stunning career-spanning collection includes Monette''s early work as well as the beautiful and wrenching poems borne out of immense loss. Written with characteristic wit, these poems deftly traverse humor, rage, love, and mourning.

He grew up in a small town in New England in the 1950's, watching lassie, going to church, getting straight A's at school, a scholar destined for success. But he already had a secret, and his public life with family and friends was already a constant round of ventriloquism as he played the joker and pretended to be the same as everyone else. For Paul Monette was gay.BECOMING A MAN is about growing up gay, and about the tyranny and self denial of the closet - one man's struggle, for half his life, to come out. From the white-bread 1950's through the rebellious 1960's to the self-creating 1970's and beyond, it forms a passionately honest and unsparing account of the tortures of living a lie, a naked protrait of one man's fight for freedom in a time of ignorance and bigotry.

Winner of the National Book Award for Becoming a Man, his candid and passionate account of growing up gay in a time of ignorance and bigotry, this third volume of Paul Monette's autobiographical writing brings together an eclectic collection of essays written under the shadow of AIDS.Meditative, philosophical, sometimes blisteringly angry, Paul Monette presents a simultaneously personal and universal vision of the struggle for freedom faced by gay and lesbian people in 1990s American, counteracting reference to his own illness with a unique perspective on literature, politics and religion.Varied yet focused, damning yet tender, Last Watch of the Night shines like a beacon of hope in a fog of intolerance - offering solace to those who think they're alone, raining down shame on those who would have them stay that way.

From the author of the National Book Award winner Becoming a Man comes a fairy tale that captures the strangeness of society’s rules and the liberating nature of love as the Great Horned Owl is brought to life as he sets an intolerant agenda in a mystical forest. In this collection of fables, Paul Monette chronicles the experiences of being lesbian and gay through the scene of a magical forest that is protected by a solitary, sex-changing witch. With the power to expel a shield that protect the animals of the forest from the outside world, the witch is able to keep the occupants of the forest safe. But not through physical protection, rather by changing the minds of the intruders entering the forest. As the witch grows weary from her constant protection, an owl hungry for power takes over the throne of the forest, urging the animals to report all suspicious activity to keep the forest safe, leading to betrayal and skepticism among a previously free and enchanted group of animals. “Like a shaman, Monette—the novelist, poet, essayist, AIDS activist, and National Book Award winner who died of AIDS in 1995—creates a magic space within this animal fable, which resonates with wisdom and grace.” — Publishers Weekly

A poetry collection spanning the career of award-winning writer Paul MonettePaul Monette got his start writing poetry, and it was to this form that he returned following the death of his partner Roger Horwitz from AIDS-related complications. This stunning collection includes Monette''s early work as well as the beautiful and wrenching poems borne out of this immense loss. Written with characteristic wit, these poems deftly traverse humor, rage, love, and sorrow.West of Yesterday, East of Summer captures the range of an important writer.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

An enthralling collection of poetry from National Book Award winner Paul Monette“Come, / what can the body do but go on, when / the best of us are eaten from within?” writes Paul Monette in the titular poem. This mixture of doom and determinedness is played out with humor and warmth in Monette’s poetry. In this quicksilver collection, his words are in perpetual motion, traveling from the Parthenon to Ohio and everywhere in between. Meditating frequently on sex, nostalgia, and love, these poems are serious without ever becoming humorless. They include charming and funny monologues from Isadora Duncan and Noël Coward. Accompanied by original artwork by David Schorr, No Witnesses is an absorbing book of poetry from an acclaimed author.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

National Book Award winner Paul Monette''s acclaimed first book of poetryOriginally published in 1975, The Carpenter at the Asylum was Monette''s first literary success. In this collection of poems, he writes with playfulness and candor of everything from fairy tales to the change of seasons. "All things glitter like fresh milk," he writes in one poem. And indeed, these works pull a sparklingly strange beauty from everyday objects and experiences.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Paul Monette''s fierce and arresting collection of poems on the death of his partner from AIDSFollowing his partner Roger Horwitz''s death from AIDS in 1986, Paul Monette threw himself into these elegies. Writing them, he says, "quite literally kept me alive." Both beautifully written and deeply affecting, every poem is full of anger, sorrow, tenderness, and a palpable sense of grief. With graceful language and emotional acuity, Paul Monette captures the enormity of a loss that ravaged a generation. But even more than they are about tragedy, these poems are about love. Each moving line is full of love for one who is no longer there, but whose presence is still achingly felt at every turn. Love Alone is remarkable for its honesty, its passion, and its depth.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Paul Monette''s uproarious, sexy novel takes us deep into the glamorous world of vintage Los AngelesPerched on top of a hill in the oldest part of Bel Air, Crook House is the grand mansion that gilded Hollywood dreams are made of. It seemed like the perfect place for the exhausted and neurotic Rita to take time away from her life and catch up with her old friend Peter and his lover, Nick. What she didn''t count on was her friends'' emotional baggage, not to mention the suspicious tales of a buried treasure underneath the house.This second novel from Paul Monette puts a tender focus on the ways in which money and time can distort relationships, while also demonstrating how the ties between friends can endure—and even grow stronger—no matter what the distance or history. As Rita, Nick, and Peter get closer to unraveling the mystery buried underneath Crook House, they begin to learn that what they are searching for could be the key to their very survival.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Now that Mrs. Carroll has died, the race for control of her elegant home has begunIt is incredible how the death of a loved one can bring people together. Especially when greedy developers waste no time in attempting to steal the Cape Cod estate of the person in question.Before she could add a stipulation to her will requiring that the house not be bought up and razed for development, Mrs. Carroll tragically passed away. Now, it is up to her lover, Phidias, and her houseboy, David, to take care of the place once again. However, they cannot do it alone. They will need the help of people ranging from David''s ex-boyfriend Rick to a kitschy former screen goddess.Written not long after Paul Monette moved to Los Angeles, his first novel is a madcap caper featuring a cast of characters willing to do anything to fulfill a dying woman''s final wish—even if that means impersonating her while hiding her dead body from the nosy lawyers scouring her estate.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

In the village of Pitts Landing, true evil can linger for centuriesIt all started with the desperate urging of an internal voice, born from a pulse-pounding nightmare: Run. With that, Iris Ammons felt impelled to leave behind her husband, her children, her job, and her idyllic life. Her motive was never clear to her, just a notion that her entire life had become unfamiliar and that she had to get to the West Coast and the mystical village of Pitts Landing.Similarly focused on the town is its devilishly charismatic cult leader Michael Roman. Michael cuts a bloody swath through his followers in order to get to the secret at the heart of the village.As the coincidences pile up and the omens stack on top of one another like the bodies of Michael''s disciples, he and Iris find themselves at the center of a mystery that stretches back for generations and has effects that could be felt for centuries to come.Lightfall is an erotic horror epic from gifted National Book Award winner Paul Monette, a master of combining thrills with intense emotion, no matter what the genre.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

An unlikely pair races to find a murderer in the hazy underbelly of Los AngelesVivien Cokes and her husband, Jasper, are LA royalty, and they have the lifestyle to prove it. Big parties, a huge mansion in Malibu, and complicated affairs are all part of the package. However, during a morning swim, Vivien makes a discovery that changes her life forever. Smelling smoke, she sees her home in flames, and inside, she finds her husband dead in the hot tub with his male lover in an apparent double suicide.To find out the truth behind her husband''s death, Vivien must turn to the unlikeliest of sources: a failed writer and grifter who was the boyfriend of her husband''s late lover. After finding kinship in a sort of shared widowhood, the two set out to bring to justice the people behind their loved ones'' deaths.Paul Monette has a poet''s touch, and his aptitude is on full display in The Long Shot as he immerses readers in a mystery with a cast of characters that is as diverse and memorable as the city in which they live.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

A powerful exploration of the way AIDS reshapes relationships and livesAfterlife is a haunting and unforgettable story of men facing loss and seeking love, movingly capturing the moment in the 1980s when the AIDS epidemic was completely devastating the American gay community. Here, National Book Award winner Paul Monette depicts three men of various economic and social backgrounds, all with one thing in common: They are widowers, in a way, and all of their lovers died of AIDS in an LA hospital within a week of one another.Steven, Sonny, and Dell meet weekly to discuss how to go on with their lives despite the hanging sword of being HIV positive. One tries to find a semblance of normalcy; one rebels openly against the disease, choosing to treat his body as a temple that he can consecrate and desecrate at will; and one throws himself into fierce political activism. No matter what path each one takes, they are all searching for one thing: a way to live and love again.Afterlife finds Paul Monette at his most autobiographical, portraying men in a situation that he himself experienced, and one that he described to critical acclaim in the award-winning Borrowed Time: An AIDS Memoir.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Tom tried everything to get away from the world—but it had a way of getting back to himWhen Tom was diagnosed with AIDS, he thought of it as a death sentence. His life was effectively over. He packed up everything and moved to a beach house in California. There, he could live out what remained of his life in peace. His landlord was kind, understanding—and interested in him romantically. Tom had found the safe haven he sought. That is, until his brother, Brian, reappeared in his life.Brian''s shady business connections back home have him and his family on the run. With him are his homophobic wife, Susan, and his son, Daniel, who has never met his uncle. Thrown into an explosive situation, Tom and his family struggle to become closer. But when Brian''s dirty dealings follow him to California and threaten the lives of the entire family, the bond between the two brothers is put to the test.Paul Monette displays a keen awareness of family dynamics as he explores coming out, life-threatening illness, and the lifelong consequences of brotherly conflicts. Halfway Home is a novel about anger and reconciliation, love and danger.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

“An eloquent testimonial to the power of love and the devastation of loss” from the National Book Award–winning author of Becoming a Man (Publishers Weekly). In 1974, Paul Monette met Roger Horwitz, the man with whom he would share more than a decade of his life. In 1986, Roger died of complications from AIDS. Borrowed Time traces this love story from start to tragic finish. At a time when the medical community was just beginning to understand this mysterious and virulent disease, Monette and others like him were coming to terms with unfathomable loss. This personal account of the early days of the AIDS crisis tells the story of love in the face of death. A finalist for the National Book Critics Circle Award, Borrowed Time was one of the first memoirs to deal candidly with AIDS and is as moving and relevant now as it was more than twenty-five years ago. Written with fierce honesty and heartwarming tenderness, this book is part love story, part testimony, and part requiem. This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

The National Book Award–winning coming-out memoir. "One of the most complex, moral, personal, and political books to have been written about gay life" (LA Weekly).Paul Monette grew up all-American, Catholic, overachieving . . . and closeted. As a child of the 1950s, a time when a kid suspected of being a "homo" would routinely be beaten up, Monette kept his secret throughout his adolescence. He wrestled with his sexuality for the first thirty years of his life, priding himself on his ability to "pass" for straight. The story of his journey to adulthood and to self-acceptance with grace and honesty, this intimate portrait of a young man''s struggle with his own desires is witty, humorous, and deeply felt.Before his death of complications from AIDS in 1995, Monette was an outspoken activist crusading for gay rights. Becoming a Man shows his courageous path to stand up for his own right to love and be loved.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Tender and passionate autobiographical essays by the National Book Award–winning author of Becoming a Man."Does it go too fast?" Monette asks about life at the beginning of one piece. The answer is a resounding "yes" for the individuals who populate this stunning work of nonfiction. These ten autobiographical essays memorialize those whose lives have been claimed by AIDS. Following Becoming a Man and Borrowed Time, Last Watch of the Night is Monette''s third and final self-portrait. In this collection, he confronts death—those of lovers and friends, and even his own eventual demise—with both bravery and compassion.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

Paul Monette''s uproarious, sexy novel takes us deep into the glamorous world of vintage Los AngelesPerched on top of a hill in the oldest part of Bel Air, Crook House is the grand mansion that gilded Hollywood dreams are made of. It seemed like the perfect place for the exhausted and neurotic Rita to take time away from her life and catch up with her old friend Peter and his lover, Nick. What she didn''t count on was her friends'' emotional baggage, not to mention the suspicious tales of a buried treasure underneath the house.This second novel from Paul Monette puts a tender focus on the ways in which money and time can distort relationships, while also demonstrating how the ties between friends can endure—and even grow stronger—no matter what the distance or history. As Rita, Nick, and Peter get closer to unraveling the mystery buried underneath Crook House, they begin to learn that what they are searching for could be the key to their very survival.This ebook features an illustrated biography of Paul Monette including rare images and never-before-seen documents from the Paul Monette papers of the UCLA Library Special Collections.

From an acclaimed memoirist and National Book Award winner: Three groundbreaking works of nonfiction put a human face on the AIDS epidemic.Paul Monette''s searing memoirs of growing up, coming out, and losing his beloved partner to AIDS are now available in a single volume. Becoming a Man: This National Book Award–winning memoir follows Monette''s childhood. Growing up all-American, Catholic, overachieving . . . and closeted, Monette wrestled with his sexuality for the first thirty years of his life, priding himself on his ability to "pass" for straight. This intimate portrait of a young man''s struggle with his own desires and journey to adulthood and self-acceptance through grace and honesty is witty, humorous, and deeply felt. Borrowed Time: Chronicling Monette''s relationship with Roger Horwitz, this tragic true story follows Horwitz''s fight against and eventual death from AIDS. A "tender and lyrical" memoir (TheNew York Times Book Review), it remains one of the most raw and human tales of the AIDS era—a "searing, shattering, ultimately hope-inspiring account of a great love story" (San Francisco Examiner). The Last Watch of the Night: Compiling work from the last two years of his life, this collection of essays documents Monette''s reflections as he slowly succumbed to AIDS. Ringing with humor, rage, and passion, his words provide a breathtaking view from inside the AIDS scourge. Brutal, funny, and startlingly honest, this comprehensive volume brings together some of the most important stories of the AIDS era.

Two novels and two collections of poetry, all powerful reflections on the AIDS experience, from the National Book Award–winning author of Becoming a Man. Afterlife: Three men bond after their lovers die of AIDS, all within a week of one another in the same Los Angeles hospital. Each of the men react differently to the situation he''s in, but no matter the path each takes, they are all searching for a way to live and love again. Halfway Home: After being diagnosed with AIDS, Tom moves to a California beach house to live out the rest of his life in peace. But the unexpected reappearance of his troubled brother quickly changes everything in this novel about anger, reconciliation, love, and danger. Love Alone: Following his partner Roger Horwitz''s death from AIDS in 1986, Paul Monette threw himself into these elegies. Writing them, he says, "quite literally kept me alive." Both beautifully written and deeply affecting, every poem is full of resentment, sorrow, tenderness, and a palpable sense of grief—but also love. West of Yesterday, East of Summer: This stunning career-spanning collection includes Monette''s early work as well as the beautiful and wrenching poems borne out of immense loss. Written with characteristic wit, these poems deftly traverse humor, rage, love, and mourning.